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When Benji escapes the apocalyptic cult that raised him, he's carrying a ticking time bomb—a bioweapon mutating him into something monstrous—and nowhere safe to run. He finds unexpected sanctuary at the ALC, a queer youth center led by the dangerously competent and gorgeous Nick, who sees Benji's terrifying secret and extends shelter anyway, asking only that Benji learn to weaponize the very thing he's always feared. As Benji begins to belong for the first time, he discovers that Nick and the ALC are hiding their own dark agenda, forcing him to question whether he's finally found a home or walked straight into a different kind of trap. This furious, electrifying debut is a raw exploration of survival, chosen family, and the liberating power of embracing the parts of yourself the world says are monstrous.
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Dark, urgent indie and alternative rock with gothic undertones. Industrial synths meet raw emotion—songs of survival, defiance, and found family. Blend haunting atmospheres with moments of fierce tenderness. Think Metric, Purity Ring, and Nine Inch Nails energy. Dystopian yet hopeful.
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